Read This Before Choosing Suicide

You’re in pain. You feel terribly alone, isolated, and things have become too much to bear. You may be too afraid to share your feelings or not know who you can trust with such intense feelings. Despite the best efforts of others, it’s likely that others don’t really understand how deeply painful what you’re currently going through truly is.

The world around you may be overwhelming, it may not make sense to you. Perhaps you don’t understand how people can be so cruel to each orher. Perhaps someone is being cruel to you. You might be in an abusive relationship that has eroded your self esteem, leaving you with a churning stomach and constant butterflies. Perhaps there’s a bully in your life, whether you’re a teenager, and it’s all become too painful to take.

If you’re at a moment where you are about to end your life: There is real, anonymous, compassionate immediate help available right now. You can call 800-273-TALK (8255) to be connected to a highly-trained counselor at a local crisis center, absolutely anytime, 24/7.

They will help you find a reason to keep living, at least for a few more hours, perhaps one more day. Your call truly is 100% anonymous, safe, and secure. No one will come knocking at your door, no one will hurt you, and no one will try to take you away for making your brave effort to simply be heard. This is probably one of the scariest moments you’ve ever faced, and you’ve probably had to keep all of this to yourself for quite some time.

There actually is good news you may not be aware of, and something you may feel is impossible to believe in this moment, but: You truly are not as alone as you may think you are.

Please call the number above, visit the websites below, or read this page for a few minutes longer as I walk with you these next few minutes.

Whatever the reason, ending your life may be the only choice you feel you have left to stop the constant suffering, the constant fear and anxiety that has taken your life away from you. You may have also realized that suicide isn’t just an escape for the weak or the pathetic as you may have been taught. And, you’re not wrong for feeling the way you do.  Nor does the contemplation of suicide make you weak or broken. For now, ignore everyone who doesn’t take you seriously when you try to talk about your feelings, telling you to move on or to simply “get over it.”

Suicide is typically a last resort for those who have been strong enough to withstand the pain in their lives for so long. It’s probably not even something you want to do. It’s more likely that you feel it’s the only choice left to ease the pain you’re experiencing.  If that’s the case, then know this one truth:

And, within that realization is also your salvation:

You’ve made it this far; that’s an amazing feat considering what you’ve likely been subjected to. That inner strength is what has gotten you through all of the difficulty and pain up to this moment, and that inner strength is exactly what will get you through this moment in your life as well.

There is a way out for you.

As someone who lost the will to live and was planning out his suicide in vivid detail for months, I’m telling you this from the other side: Suicide is a choice I would never consider making for myself anymore, and that feels more amazing than I could ever hope to explain.

I never thought I would actually believe that, but I do. So, I know it’s possible for you to get to that place as well.

If you don’t know who to trust right now, trust this one sentiment: No matter how deep the pain, no matter how difficult your day is, no matter how depressed or anxiety-ridden you are, no matter how terrible the situation you find yourself in is; absolutely nothing is worth dying for. Suicide is a choice only someone who is alive can make.  Promise yourself to stay alive for at least another 24 hours, and I promise there is hope.

Now, are you any calmer than you were when you started reading this? If so, that’s an amazing first step. Be proud of yourself for small victories such as this; you will need a lot of those to get to a place where contemplating suicide is nothing more than a memory of a past choice you were once faced with.  It is possible, and you can not only do it, you can find true happiness in your life, regardless of your current situation or state of mind.

I don’t know you, but please know this: I don’t need to know you to know that you are a rare and beautiful being. Someone or something has taken that knowledge from you. Sadly, so many of us aren’t equipped with the tools we need when we’re growing up to deal with some of life’s traumatic situations and we feel we’re left with no other options.  There are other options.

And there are countless other people who not only can be trusted, but who want nothing from you, and who also have some small idea of what you’re going through.  Please keep reading, and let’s empower you to get just enough help to get you through the next few hours.

Believe it or not, the best way most know of to help them through this key moment in your life, is to simply speak with someone who you know you can trust with the feelings you’ve been too afraid to share with anyone, or the feelings you didn’t know who you could talk to about.

Lastly, if, because of this website, you feel safe speaking to me, I have included a Contact Form on the “RESOURCES” page.  I’m no mental health professional; I’m simply someone who worked for several months on researching and choosing my suicide plan.  Instead of moving forward with my plans, though, I decided to reach out to a therapist in my local area instead.  That one call and one office visit saved my life.

I answer any email sent to me with a genuine intent within 1-2 hours, 7 days a week.

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